I think I might be too old for dorm life
Jan. 18th, 2012 02:48 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
ellenel13 It's my first week back and I love learning but I hate almost all my classmates. My dorm mates insists on being obnoxiously loud until really late at night (last night then only shut the fuck up at about three). I need to sleep and the walls are made of fucking cardboard. Why was one of them rapping at three? WHY? Last semester, I had to endure a sex phone call.
As far as my actual classes are concerned, I'm really excited. Intro to Cancer is probably the first class I've ever taken that will take an almost purely medical look on a subject. We'll even do mock-case files. I'm also taking another class on apiculture, which I I'll probably never use but I hope will be extremely interesting. conditioning and Learning might teach me some good study techniques, but I only really included that class because it fit my schedule. I also included a class on the experiences of gays and lesbians in the USA, for the same reason. There's also biochem lab, which, like most labs, will probably be tedious and boring.
I also went back to work and while I'm relieved to have an income again, I really hate it on most days. I couldn't relate to most teens when I was one, now I just want to never ever engage them. To be perfectly honest, it's probably mostly my fault. I don't do good when I'm forced to interact with many people at once. I'm a one-on-one kind of person. There's at least one girl who really likes me and thinks I explain the concepts really well, but that's just one girl out many, many kids. Still, yesterday I was expected to tutor a pair of kids who clearly had a thing for each other. They spent most of the time giggling and play wrestling, and the immature sexual comments got increasingly inappropriate. Not a day I hope to repeat.
I need to go tot he gym more, but now the cold is keeping me huddled at my dorm. It helps me sleep and manage my depression, which has been acting up even though my life is objectively going well. I want to go right now, but it's too fucking windy and I couldn't afford a new coat so . . . Anyway, gym doesn't open until four regardless. And I should be able to buy a couple of heavy sweaters sometime next month. Except I also have bills to pay . . .
I finished A Feast for Crows and started A Dance with Dragons. I'm honestly beginning to lose patience with Martin. First, he's fucking his pacing all up because he insist on adding superfluous characters to his already bloated cast. I want to read about Jon, Daenerys, Arya, Sansa, and maybe Davos if he's advancing the plot, not about random ass people from Westeros. I would like to say I want to read more Brienne, but Martin has set her on wild-goose chase for Arya and Sansa. I (and every other fucking reader) know where Sansa and Arya are and it's no where near where Brienne is looking. It's boring to see a character on a pointless quest, even if you like that character.
And when I said I want to read about Jon, I didn't mean scenes that happened a book ago from Jon's perspective. That is fanfic bullshit, right there. I love fanfic, but I wouldn't pay to read fanfic. Speaking of which, I found out that Martin does not allow fanfic of his work. At first, I figured it was his right, whatever. Now I suspect he's just too in love with his own work. He includes scenes from one-off characters for "world-building", but it's unnecessary. Westeros was already fairly fleshed out. We knew what the commoners have to endure because Arya has been going through it since the end of book one. There's no need to do a chapter from some random guard's POV. Or some smuggler. Or anyone else not important enough to get a freaking name.
Even more annoying, I can't overlook Martin's sexism after A Feast for Crows. I've said that the series as whole does relatively well with regards to women characters, and I stand by that, but I have recognize that Martin's subconscious sexism is rearing its ugly head. Cersei's character in AFFC is the best example of that. Martin has her point out all the dismissive bullshit she's faced throughout her life because Westeros is a patriarchy, but then he goes and validates what every single male character says about her (Jaime included). Cersei proves that she actually is too proud, irrational, fickle, and downright stupid to rule. Yes, I know that every single character who gains any power in this series fucks it up but . . .
When the men fuck up, it's because of circumstances beyond their control or because they stubbornly tried to do the right thing and risk their lives. Ned Stark: died because he tried to be merciful. Rob Stark: killed because he didn't want to leave a woman he slept with in disgrace and because he tried to apologize to the people he'd insulted. Renly: killed by some shadow. Mance: failed his big rebellion partly because Stannis ambushed him. Khal Drogo: died by fucing magic, partly because Daenerys insisted that he be treated by the slave she'd just rescued. Even Theon's fuck up was (at least as far as he was concerned) the result of being daring and clever.
Cersei: surrounds herself by foolish and weak councillors because she's too afraid to deal with anyone intelligent, fucks up Westeros' medieval credit score because she refuses to pay the crowns debts, uses funds to rebuild the armada because she distrusts House Tyrell and refuses to even consider an alliance, and allows the increasingly violent and radical group of religious extremists at King's Landing to arm themselves even though she's suspected of incest. And just to drive home how stupid and evil she is: she hires a corrupt, torturing maester and gives anyone who pisses her off for him to torture, dumps Jaime the moment he starts to question her stupidity (with charming comments about how he's a worthless half-man now that he's an amputee), clearly stops giving much of a fuck about Tommen, mentions Myrcella like once, and generally acts like a stupid drunk.
To summarize: Martin's text says "it's incredibly unfair that women are dismissed as irrational and stupid". Martin's subtext: "women are irrational and stupid." It's really tiring.
I would whine more but this is getting long. I'll close by saying that I wish La Fiesta del Chivo was available for the Kindle in Spanish.
As far as my actual classes are concerned, I'm really excited. Intro to Cancer is probably the first class I've ever taken that will take an almost purely medical look on a subject. We'll even do mock-case files. I'm also taking another class on apiculture, which I I'll probably never use but I hope will be extremely interesting. conditioning and Learning might teach me some good study techniques, but I only really included that class because it fit my schedule. I also included a class on the experiences of gays and lesbians in the USA, for the same reason. There's also biochem lab, which, like most labs, will probably be tedious and boring.
I also went back to work and while I'm relieved to have an income again, I really hate it on most days. I couldn't relate to most teens when I was one, now I just want to never ever engage them. To be perfectly honest, it's probably mostly my fault. I don't do good when I'm forced to interact with many people at once. I'm a one-on-one kind of person. There's at least one girl who really likes me and thinks I explain the concepts really well, but that's just one girl out many, many kids. Still, yesterday I was expected to tutor a pair of kids who clearly had a thing for each other. They spent most of the time giggling and play wrestling, and the immature sexual comments got increasingly inappropriate. Not a day I hope to repeat.
I need to go tot he gym more, but now the cold is keeping me huddled at my dorm. It helps me sleep and manage my depression, which has been acting up even though my life is objectively going well. I want to go right now, but it's too fucking windy and I couldn't afford a new coat so . . . Anyway, gym doesn't open until four regardless. And I should be able to buy a couple of heavy sweaters sometime next month. Except I also have bills to pay . . .
I finished A Feast for Crows and started A Dance with Dragons. I'm honestly beginning to lose patience with Martin. First, he's fucking his pacing all up because he insist on adding superfluous characters to his already bloated cast. I want to read about Jon, Daenerys, Arya, Sansa, and maybe Davos if he's advancing the plot, not about random ass people from Westeros. I would like to say I want to read more Brienne, but Martin has set her on wild-goose chase for Arya and Sansa. I (and every other fucking reader) know where Sansa and Arya are and it's no where near where Brienne is looking. It's boring to see a character on a pointless quest, even if you like that character.
And when I said I want to read about Jon, I didn't mean scenes that happened a book ago from Jon's perspective. That is fanfic bullshit, right there. I love fanfic, but I wouldn't pay to read fanfic. Speaking of which, I found out that Martin does not allow fanfic of his work. At first, I figured it was his right, whatever. Now I suspect he's just too in love with his own work. He includes scenes from one-off characters for "world-building", but it's unnecessary. Westeros was already fairly fleshed out. We knew what the commoners have to endure because Arya has been going through it since the end of book one. There's no need to do a chapter from some random guard's POV. Or some smuggler. Or anyone else not important enough to get a freaking name.
Even more annoying, I can't overlook Martin's sexism after A Feast for Crows. I've said that the series as whole does relatively well with regards to women characters, and I stand by that, but I have recognize that Martin's subconscious sexism is rearing its ugly head. Cersei's character in AFFC is the best example of that. Martin has her point out all the dismissive bullshit she's faced throughout her life because Westeros is a patriarchy, but then he goes and validates what every single male character says about her (Jaime included). Cersei proves that she actually is too proud, irrational, fickle, and downright stupid to rule. Yes, I know that every single character who gains any power in this series fucks it up but . . .
When the men fuck up, it's because of circumstances beyond their control or because they stubbornly tried to do the right thing and risk their lives. Ned Stark: died because he tried to be merciful. Rob Stark: killed because he didn't want to leave a woman he slept with in disgrace and because he tried to apologize to the people he'd insulted. Renly: killed by some shadow. Mance: failed his big rebellion partly because Stannis ambushed him. Khal Drogo: died by fucing magic, partly because Daenerys insisted that he be treated by the slave she'd just rescued. Even Theon's fuck up was (at least as far as he was concerned) the result of being daring and clever.
Cersei: surrounds herself by foolish and weak councillors because she's too afraid to deal with anyone intelligent, fucks up Westeros' medieval credit score because she refuses to pay the crowns debts, uses funds to rebuild the armada because she distrusts House Tyrell and refuses to even consider an alliance, and allows the increasingly violent and radical group of religious extremists at King's Landing to arm themselves even though she's suspected of incest. And just to drive home how stupid and evil she is: she hires a corrupt, torturing maester and gives anyone who pisses her off for him to torture, dumps Jaime the moment he starts to question her stupidity (with charming comments about how he's a worthless half-man now that he's an amputee), clearly stops giving much of a fuck about Tommen, mentions Myrcella like once, and generally acts like a stupid drunk.
To summarize: Martin's text says "it's incredibly unfair that women are dismissed as irrational and stupid". Martin's subtext: "women are irrational and stupid." It's really tiring.
I would whine more but this is getting long. I'll close by saying that I wish La Fiesta del Chivo was available for the Kindle in Spanish.
